I would like to give sincere apologies to all my dearest friends who loved my dolls these years T__T I have been struggling with Depressions. I could not walk out of the shadows inside myself. I felt sudden upsets and sadness, and felt like held by white fog through out the days, and have to run away from the connections with outer world. Last winter while I made final decisions to say goodbye to this painful world, my dog stopped me, and I suddenly recognized that this is not the ending of my life that I wanted. I reached out for doctors and medicines, and wanted to change the track of my life. It has been proofed that my decision is correct, now I see the passions coming back to me as what I had in the past, and the white fog is going away. Though my current depression status is not very stable, but I am looking forward to a good future :) I want to start a new journey.